Friday 28 March 2008

Questions...

For those who are being tagged, you need to answer 20 questions (choose any 19 questions from the one who has tagged you, and add 1 question of your own).

1. Favourite chocolate?
Black chocolate


2. You prefer rainy day or sunny day? and why?
not too sunny during the day and rainy during the midnight

3. What colour do you like most?
purple

4. What is the last thing you would tell a person you love?
i love you

5. Which place in the earth do you want to go the most?
somewhere romantic (i miss my man. sob..sob..)

6. What would you do when you are in deep sadness?
listening to music..it does help

7. What do you scare to lose in your life?
my family

8. If you ever meet someone that you love, what would you do to her/him?
love him for the rest of life (if he's mine forever)

9. Whenever you miss your man/woman, what would you do?
text him to say that i miss him..it's more romantic by texting rather than calling just to say i miss him

10. Until now, what is the moment that you regret most?
Being too forgiveful

11. Which type of person you hate most?
Arrogant and selfish

12. What is your ambition?
To be a lady boss..haha!just kidding

13. Painful truths or white lies?
neither

14. If a genie appeared in front of you, what would you ask for?
hm..i wish that my family and friends would live happily,healthy and wealthy hehe!

15. Christmas is coming, who would you like to celebrate with?
my man and girl

16. What is the most important thing in your life?
my family

17. When do you wish to settle down?
whenever i want

18. Outer attractiveness or inner attractiveness, which one do you prefer?
both

19. If you ever want to let go something in your life, what would it be?
skip!

20. Love and Money, which one do you prefer?
i want both..that's a need!

21. Who would u tag ?
everyone who reads this

Sunday 23 March 2008

Wednesday 5 March 2008

History of my life

This morning, when I was doing my room chores, I was thinking about my views on my father (I'm too formal in this sense). I hate when it suddenly appeared in my mind.

Until today, I still have the negative thoughts or views on my father. I tried not to think at that way because it sounds so childish of me, which usually only teenagers (adolescents) age around 12-20 might had those stupid bias toward family members especially to the parents, whom I already reached the age of 20+. But it still occurred inside me (or I'm not matured enough yet?). Hummph!

When I was still a kid, I used to hope that my father would bring us shopping, having some picnics, have conversation with us (my siblings), etc. I did not have such a luck as the other kids had. They (the kids, which now still are my friends) could have those like what I mentioned in the above. I did not mean that I had not received any, but it was too little or few in those years.

It was like this.

My father would only buy us clothes ONCE in a year, that was before the Chinese New Year. Which meant, he would only take out money for us to buy clothes ( for warming, in my sense ) ONCE a year. And we (the siblings and I ) had only a chance shopping during these times. My point is why could not he bring us shopping once in a month (I do not request much),only ONCE in a month, OK! In other cases, of course, he did feed us and himself too. I did not mean he kept the money for himself. He paid our school fees and bus fees as well. But by doing all these did not mean he had accomplished his mission as a father. And what I remembered, I did not have any picnic with my family. Since my father do not drive so that may be one of the factors of why he could not bring us to anywhere.

What we want as their kids were we hope he understood what we wanted and what we needed, especially from physical and mental aspects. I remembered that my eldest brother used to have some problems but since no 'feeling' conversation held in the house, he kept all the problems within him and thus, had discipline problem when he was in the high school, for example, smoking. I know that he was stress and he could not depend from his close parent, so who should he depend on? Of course, his friends! From there, he learned from them all the so-called bad behaviours in the school. What is the cause of this? Was it the parent fault or my eldest brother fault? It is very important to talk with your parents about anything, except yellow-minded thingy if you are not allowed to (some parent do teach the kids on this ), this is to free your stress and problems and it's good to share them instead of holding them by yourselves, ALONE!

They were quite a lot if i want to type them all here. But I do not want to expose all, otherwise the readers would think what kind of daughter I am, hahaha! Pengsan~ Am I too bias toward my own father? Hummph! I do not want to have this feeling exist now and forever! I feel guilty to him! I love you is what I can say now..

Since I'm a mother to a kid, I do not wish such things to occur at my daughter self. I try to understand what she needs and I do bring her shopping, sometimes with her grandmother, father as well as her uncle. Hehe! She uses to be so happy when she wears her shoes, she knows that mommy and daddy about to bring her to kai-kai. Haha! I really hope her father (my kid's father ) would not be like my father, because I do have instinct that told me he is about to be my next daddy!

Here some pictures of my kid (just to make the environment happier.. Hehe!)



Tuesday 4 March 2008

V.I.R.U.S

It's been a while that I just noticed my precious HP laptop caught virus! I was freaking damnit with the so-called 'msn-virus'! SHYT!

My friend sent me a link from msn conversation, and of course I clicked on it with the thought of maybe it's something interesting or fun. Without any hesitation,I clicked it! Somewhat of to-check-who-blocked-you-in-msn appeared. In no doubt I registered but nothing appeared! I ignored it. The day after the incident, another friend of mine asked what did I send to her. Of course, I replied her, 'I have sent nothing to you.' She answered, 'a kind of link maybe?' I was thinking,I never sent any link to my friends but I did received one! In my mind, maybe my mistake to accidentally pressed the wrong button and eventually sent to all the chatters.

But... after some times, I received another link from whom sent me the previous link! I clicked it with my curiosity. Website of games. Ohhh, I didn't clicked anything from that because too lazy to browse it.

OK.. Now is the time when I realised my laptop is unwell with virus! I received another link from the other people! But I didn't do anything with it. Then my friend told me virus is attacking my laptop! She said, I kept on sending her links (which I don't)! the previous incidents pop into my head and I now knew they actually sending viruses without their knowing. OH GOSH!

Whenever I sign in to my msn, it would sign out anytime and it said I sign in on other computer! Bloody hell! When, where and how did I sign in at the other computer?! Sux! I know that the virus is attacking me as well as the others.

So, please DO NOT open any links that you might received now or in the future no matter fm whom you might received it. *sigh*